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To whom it may concern…

Written By: teamcharliebear - Feb• 27•15

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I feel I owe some of you an apology. I really don’t know where to begin, but I know I simply can’t do this. I can’t run all over a town I no longer live in and rustle up a big to do about autism awareness this year. You have no idea how much of a failure this makes me feel like. I loved the impact we made on the community last year. Having people come and support and learn…it was amazing and truly needed! However, this year I simply don’t have the energy or time to devote to ordering extra lights and organizing an entire block party. I woke up at 3 this morning and couldn’t go back to sleep. My mind was racing with all the people I needed to call to make the thing happen and the overwhelming fear that I simply couldn’t pull this off while being 7 & 8 months pregnant! I know no one cares about excuses, but if you look at all the things that have happened recently: My mother needing a liver transplant and all her time in hospitals. My son becoming a missing person briefly, and all the changes he’s endured. There were some fleeting health concerns with the new baby, though we think everything is ok now, it’s obvious I have to take it easy. It’s a wonder I haven’t already suffered a nervous breakdown. Makes perfect sense that I would want to retreat and circle the wagons so to speak.
In short, I surrender.
I can’t save the world. I can’t afford any distractions. My family, which is getting bigger all the time, needs me. Springfield will have to keep the momentum that we built last year going on their own. It’s up to you guys now.
I’m proud to say that the Mayor’s office and the Andy SoldIt Team will be lighting the courthouse up again this year. I’m just sad to say it won’t involve a huge celebration like last year. Not one that I planned anyway. Still that doesn’t mean that you can’t buy a blue light bulb at Lowe’s and Home Depot to turn your own porch light blue. After all, that’s where we started and look how far the lights have traveled. I’m proud of my hometown and I hope they keep the love lights shining bright each year.
Thank you for your continued support. I only hope you guys aren’t too disappointed in me.

P.J.

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